The Curse is gone & I was reborn again.

I can’t explain this feeling. The minute I went to Elena (my one and only healer I fully trust), everything came to light. I have some memory loss, but not in a bad way. This time, I lost all memories of the bad things that took place in my life and even people that were not good for me, was wiped out during the healing I did. Initially, I came to this woman to remove a curse that was placed by my mother, but she did more than that. I did not realize I was on this time loop of darkness which is the curse that sent me on a spiral of bad luck, attracting people that took advantage of me, and even just kept punishing myself without even realizing it. I went on a cosmic journey after healing with this shamanic healer, who became a dear friend. She is this angel that I have been wanting in my life for so long and took me on a self-love journey from within to finally free myself from all the dark shackles. It happened on 8/17/2024, I will never forget it but I wanted to share this story, as I am embarking a journey of becoming a shamanic healer myself on a deeper level. There were painful memories and heartbreaking aches I just wanted to go away, and all I remember was my healer saying she is ready to remove all these cords and place a sacred space for me to finally let them all go. I told her I am tired of crying from the inside, and I want to wipe out every bad memory or people that made me felt unworthy of myself. I told her that I wanted MY POWER BACK and I never want anyone to remove my voice ever again. Never to remember bad events that took place ever again and even remove people I do not want to remember ever again that put me in a bad place. I went on a journey in the past and each scenario, I felt the power of this healer wiping them out. As I saw almost like a projector screen disintegrating & lit on fire. It took her 3 hours to do this healing. I am not sure what happened, but I woke up with a blanket on me, it was hard for me to really come back, and all I just felt was my heart feeling so happy, physically tired, and only remembering what took place in a week or two. However, after my healing, something amazing happened, as all of a sudden just my whole mind shifted in the most amazing way, and my husband was mentioning someone name and all I asked was “who?” and I really do not recall much of what took place in my life. However, I have such vivid memories of good people and events that I can recall, and it made my heart feel so bliss. I believe the curse is truly gone, as there are symptoms I would feel physically and it is no longer lingering. All of a sudden my manifestation has gotten quicker within MINUTES or even SECONDS, and I keep trying to remember what I was hurt about….but I seem to just can’t. With that said, the experience I just encountered, I told my healer that I wanted to do the exact work, so I can help people no longer experience their pain of the past ever again or stay in a time loop of darkness. I am so happy that this curse is finally gone and that I can move forward becoming the healer I was meant to be. Whoever or whatever took place in my life that hurt me, I wish them well and I surrendered it to the universe. If I do not remember those who will encounter me again, asking if I remember, do not be surprised that I won’t. The chances are, my subconscious during my healing wiped you out and was never meant to remember, as it means that energy was hurting me rather than helping me grow. If you are going through a shamanic healing on a deeper level, expect these things can happen and it is a long journey.

UPDATE: I began remembering again who these people that hurt me. However, my healer stated to me that these are all normal purging and my body is going through a trauma detox that will make me feel tired and emotions will be a mixed of everything all at once. For now, I am just living in the moment and see where it takes me.