From people pleasing to accepting myself

Why did I share this story? You might remember my past tales of curses, religious rejection, and heartbreak. I haven't explained how being a people pleaser is part of me. While healing, I still find myself seeking approval from others. Like many, I want to feel accepted and avoid rejection.

Throughout my life, I faced rejection unless I changed to please others. My mother wanted me to be a nurse for financial reasons and to follow her wishes. The church I attended pushed me to be "an example," stifling my individuality. I had friends who I accepted, but they never did the same for me, and eventually, they all left my life.

This led me into deep sadness. I lost my support system and started losing myself. I felt alone, overwhelmed by my thoughts, and my life felt like it was falling apart. I isolated myself during this sad time. However, I experienced a spiritual breakthrough when I discovered my twin flame and began exploring divination tools that felt familiar from a past life. I am grateful for that moment, but I notice I'm still trying to please others. Why is that?

I was invited to two retreats. I attended the first, and it was special, but I held back. It reminded me of a past support system that I lost, which still hurts me. I often wonder why I was taught to express my feelings, only to be ostracized for doing so. This experience made me fearful of the second retreat my reiki master invited me to. It ended badly, damaging our relationship, and left me feeling alone without any support.

I want you to understand that trauma is real and cannot be fixed in a short time frame. It's important to check in with yourself and build a solid support system that truly understands you. If you’re reading this, it’s not by chance; I’ve faced similar struggles. My experiences, though dark, can also offer you hope.

I want to help others and enjoy doing it. I also want to be myself and accept my flaws. I want to say YES and NO when I choose. Those who understand me should treat me with the same respect. Everyone deserves to feel understood, listened to, and supported. My higher self reminds me that it’s okay to want what I want without guilt or shame. It’s fine to be who I am and feel good in my own skin. No one should change or force you to be someone else. If you feel the same way, reach out to me. I am here to listen.

You are valued and important in this world because of your individuality. Don't let anyone dim your light or change who you are. Jobs and money can be replaced, but you cannot. Take time to live your life the way you want while maintaining balance. Speak with a therapist or coach who truly supports you without trying to change you. Change only if it’s for your own reasons, not to meet others' expectations. Stay true to yourself, not to what others want.