How my heart opened for other healers
Where can I start. My life was a roller coaster from fighting with certain family members, to friends from high school disappearing, mother cursing me with her witch powers, church and spiritual group rejecting me or felt that abandonment…but for some reason…I DID NOT GIVE UP! However anyone is going to take this blog is solely up to them and it is their perspective. This is my truth from within and my highest self. I love her, I respect her, and I deserve to speak my truth to the world regardless of what I will face. The reason, when Jesus (just a disclaimer, I am not Jesus nor compare myself to any Gods) was going through his healing and growth, a lot of the people MOCKED HIM, PERSECUTED HIM, SHUNNED HIM, AND EVEN TRIED TO KILL HIM.
That is how I was feeling for the last THREE DECADES OF MY LIFE. Even with seeking healing from a church or a spiritual healer (only one during that time) was not working. Was it because of these people? NO! It is because at one point in my life I did not understand what it means to fully be connected to GOD and the UNIVERSE. Let me explain this. The reason for us feeling so hurt from people or situation that occurs to us is because WE CARE AND LOVE VERY HARD. When it gets so deep and sometimes we even begin to look up to them, and something happens, it feels like you got cut by a knife so deep and you think…”why would anyone do this to me?” or “Why is this happening to me?” Sounds familiar right? Because this happened to me.
HOWEVER, we also need to remember that situations and people we encounter are also a part of YOU. What do I mean by this? When you meet certain people in your life, you are not realizing that you are also meeting a part of yourself. There is something about people and places that gets drawn to you because it is something you NEED versus what YOU WANT to understand your soul, your passion, and your PURPOSE. All of us, not just myself, have to go through this intense amount of pain for us to receive the biggest call that GOD and the UNIVERSE wants us to take. I remember someone at my old church, a PASTOR stated to me when I was 17, “you are the most important person in this world and you are going to save so many people.” During that time, I had no idea what she was talking about and thought nothing of it. However, I felt so hurt from their church when I began my spiritual journey in a whole new meaning, and I was shunned by their group. Then recently, I went to a woman’s retreat and one woman (lovely woman) stated that she saw a “martyr” in me. Martyr is one who sacrifices life or something of great value for a principle or cause. However, I still did not know the meaning of that and this was very recent when this took place. Well, after what took place in that moment of the retreat, I left and I was redirected. I do not know what came over me and it is not like me to just leave but I heard a whisper when I was praying and a spirit guide just whispered to my ears “run…”
It is not their fault of my decision but at the same time, I also did not want to end any friendships but it felt like it has. Which is fine, I have to also respect people’s decisions as I made mine and I followed it. I heard a whisper, I did not ignore it, and I went with it. Now, I am asking GOD and the UNIVERSE, “what is it that you want me to understand? What is the reason of you redirecting my life all of a sudden?” Out of nowhere, four hours moving out of my old office, a new one comes up and the number of the door is number ONE. One in the tarot deck or angel code means “new beginnings” and then I began seeing angel numbers MORE THAN NORMAL. It just kept popping up and popping up out of nowhere. Then next to my office I meet a woman who is also a life coach and holistic healer which really shocked me. Each time I meditate, I can hear more and more the meaning of it. My body temperature is rising and I cannot explain it. My aches in my body disappeared, I feel more calm, and I feel at peace. There is still something I wanted to understand, why did I meet a healer in such divine time BUT then we both got separated from the universe.
So something shook me to look for another healer. Yet, I met another woman on a DIVINE TIME 6644 (6/6/2024) at 515PM during a NEW MOON. New moon also stands for new beginnings and I wanted to look for answers so badly. Let me tell you, I have never experienced an indigenous reiki healing before until I met Elena and I am not sure what she did, I only saw myself in tears, she was with me for two hours to help me understand what happened, she removed all of the energies that absorb in my body that were negative, or even people that placed negative words in my ears she took it out, she buried me under earth with her special sage from Peru that I cannot explain, but it was all MAGICAL. She really put a smile on my face and explained to me why I had to go through what I went through. It is because only the strong can endure such pain and NEED to go through it to become the best healer. Then I decided to coach with Oliver Nino and I had NO IDEA that I was not just a regular empath and now it made sense what took place in my life. I am an embodier empath and I can absorb EVERY ENERGY ALL AROUND ME. The physical pain, the mental anguish, the spiritual brokenness, I mean EVERYTHING. I thought I was doing everything right by meditating to release it…NO! Not even close and I finally got the answers when I took Oliver Nino coaching and began reading his book. All my answers I have been looking for the Universe gave to me and truly eye opening. When Oliver did a clearing energy from my body and showed us a technique on how to properly release this….oh my gosh…LIFE CHANGING. I tried it on my tribe with what he has shown me and my healer Elena combined. Seriously….LIFE CHANGING and every pain of my body is gone, I don’t feel mad at anything or anyone anymore, I notice I am not getting offended easily anymore, and I am beginning to love who I am even more. Then I went out for the first time like grocery shopping, and during my spiritual awakening stages that really exhausted me so much. Now, I do not feel exhausted at all and I can’t feel anything around me from other people. As if my body has it own sage and just respectfully blocking their energies. I felt so happy, calm, at peace, and no longer hiding. Thank you Oliver, Mandy, Elena, and other healers out there for what they do. Also, thank you from other healers early on my start of my journey to get me to this path, as well as my God, Universe, Spirit Guides, and Arch Angels.
What happened after these challenges and amazing things happened, I felt a deep sense of connection to God and the Universe like FINALLY. I am finally free and no longer in shackles. I am more open to MORE HEALERS to understand their different gifts aside from ONE PERSON. Everyone is so different and it should be embraced. I have one student I see still and she texted me and states, “I look up to you so much” and I stated, “that is so sweet of you but I do not want you to look up to me. I am flattered, but I WANT YOU TO LOOK UP TO YOURSELF!” I mean that for everyone from the bottom of my heart. I am a healer yes, and the people I met that are healers are fantastic in their own way. However, they are not meant to look up to or to idolize but you can be inspired by their work absolutely and create YOUR OWN WAY of healing other people. Love yourself, idolize yourself, give yourself a chance to grow and become creative because in the end of that, you can become the person to help others who has been in your shoes.
I hope this helps for those who felt abandoned, rejected, lost, confused, etc. Remember, our traumas and challenges are not forever. We are also grateful for them because we become the best version of ourselves because of them. Don’t just seek healing from one person, expand and explore your horizons as well. You may be surprised of breakthroughs you learn about yourself. Take great care.
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